A Letter to Jesus

Dear Jesus

what am i to do with this life you have given me? I know i am special and fortunate enough to have all of the basic needs... but what more do i have to hold on to? what am i to do when the ones who brought me up are the ones who make me want to let go? Jesus, i do not want to stay here anymore. my cup is full... help me empty is once again.

Jesus, guide me to the right path, to help me do what is best for me... guide me because this path i am on has already been destroyed.

I thought i had everything i needed. i was wrong. Jesus, when i met you once again when i walked into that Church, i felt reborn... i understood once again. now i understand more than ever that money cannot but anything essential.

Jesus, why do they care about money so much? how did they become this way? Lord open their eyes to let them see that they are neglecting their other responsibilities.

I am sad Lord... broken and sad

give me the strength to go on... to make things work within myself despite the external factors hindering me from living life in your light.

Lord, their eyes are open but their ears are shut. how am i to tell them how i feel? it is a misfortune for me because they were both raised with pride. they do not want to be told that they need to change as well. I went to a parents' forum, Jesus, and it made me so down to see how other parents were so open to changing themselves, to adjust, just to be at par with their children. times are changing, and we must change along with it. must the child always be the one to understand his parents? aren't parents suppose to understand their children?

Lord, why can't they see me... i am so jealous... i have done my best so far... and i never even got a single hug or praise... what am i doing wrong? or maybe i was just really a mistake. that is how they make me feel Lord... like i am a mistake. they do not support me in anything, they only care about what is more convenient to them..

Jesus, can we share...?

From now on your Father and your Mother shall be mine as well.... to them i will turn for the strength and courage to get me through.

though my biological parents are not all that bad...they do not understand... they do not understand like you do Lord. and they never will. and i know that what God gives us is never a mistake, so my biological parents are not a mistake... i know this because through them i learned a lot... like how to hold my head up high when the people who are supposed to hold you on high just lets you fall.

I love you Jesus...