Valentine's Day is fast approaching
February is known as the month of love. It makes me think: what is it about love that makes us feel so alive, so inspired, so complete.
Abigail and Love <3
a little belief:
Soul mates. when a person dies, the soul is divided into two: the anima and animus (male and female counterpart). these counterparts travel into the body of two different individuals. and when that individual dies it divides and travels once again. our ultimate goal is to find our soul mate - our direct counterpart. when we are down, feel incomplete, and feel lost it means that a vital part of us is missing - our soul mate... we try to get intact with ourselves once again, hence the term soul searching. since there are so many divisions of our soul around us, there is a big chance that we may encounter more than one soul mate, this is where we begin to hurt because we must decide who is our direct soul mate... who is our other half.
when in love:
“It seems to me, dear, you have met your soul mate. You will rarely come across someone that actually sees you for what and who you are; someone who will give you the feeling that you have known each other for a lifetime during your first meeting. Leilani,” she bent in a little closer, “When you find someone like that, hold on to him. You will find yourself in that person, parts of you that were forgotten or never even let out. Do not think about how long you have known him or where in life he will bring you, just accept him and that is all there is to it.” - this is an exert from my very own novel Endless Horizons. this is how i perceive love... cherish the person while you still have him because you will never know where destiny will bring you. when you find your soul mate you will find meaning; even if for the shortest amount of time.
love helps us find meaning in our existence because it transforms us into different people. when one is in love he tends to do things he never thought he can do, he sees things differently, acts and feels different as well... and when one does this all the more he/she realizes his potential. Being in love is a way of getting to know ourselves better.
you can never find meaning or essence in anything without truly understanding it first. same goes with the self... we must get to know ourselves better, understand deeper, in order to give meaning to our existence. <3
an experience:
about ten months ago i was engaged. when i met him, i thought i was the luckiest girl in the world. i was in love, and i was contented. we were planning everything when it suddenly struck me that i do not want to marry him... it broke his heart, and it hurt me as well because i could not give him a valid reason why i did not want to continue... i just felt deep inside that it was not right. during the time i was with him, i learned a lot about myself. through him i uncovered things about me that i had forgotten... i started to write again and do everything i was good at, things i forgot i knew how to do. he showed me just how simple things actually are. and during my time with him i found my way back to God. he was my savior... yet i do not know why i just couldn't go through with it. now.i start to think, what if i stayed? we would be getting married months from now. what if i did things differently?what did he go through?what have i done?... and the worst: WHAT IF HE WAS MY DIRECT SOUL MATE? there are times, a lot of times actually, when i just want to go back. fix things. there are times when i want to continue with the wedding and believe that he is actually the one. there are times until now when i cry, thinking this is just my karma for letting him go. but those times are temporary, because i always keep in mind that he is happy now. and when i remember that, i am happy too. he was my soul mate, i learned so much, had the time of my life, but most importantly: I GOT ACQUAINTED with myself once again... he brought out the best of me to fulfill God's plan for me...
the lesson:
and now that i understand myself, even though i am all alone, i feel grounded and complete...the role of love in our search for meaning.=)
Soul mates. when a person dies, the soul is divided into two: the anima and animus (male and female counterpart). these counterparts travel into the body of two different individuals. and when that individual dies it divides and travels once again. our ultimate goal is to find our soul mate - our direct counterpart. when we are down, feel incomplete, and feel lost it means that a vital part of us is missing - our soul mate... we try to get intact with ourselves once again, hence the term soul searching. since there are so many divisions of our soul around us, there is a big chance that we may encounter more than one soul mate, this is where we begin to hurt because we must decide who is our direct soul mate... who is our other half.
when in love:
“It seems to me, dear, you have met your soul mate. You will rarely come across someone that actually sees you for what and who you are; someone who will give you the feeling that you have known each other for a lifetime during your first meeting. Leilani,” she bent in a little closer, “When you find someone like that, hold on to him. You will find yourself in that person, parts of you that were forgotten or never even let out. Do not think about how long you have known him or where in life he will bring you, just accept him and that is all there is to it.” - this is an exert from my very own novel Endless Horizons. this is how i perceive love... cherish the person while you still have him because you will never know where destiny will bring you. when you find your soul mate you will find meaning; even if for the shortest amount of time.
love helps us find meaning in our existence because it transforms us into different people. when one is in love he tends to do things he never thought he can do, he sees things differently, acts and feels different as well... and when one does this all the more he/she realizes his potential. Being in love is a way of getting to know ourselves better.
you can never find meaning or essence in anything without truly understanding it first. same goes with the self... we must get to know ourselves better, understand deeper, in order to give meaning to our existence. <3
an experience:
about ten months ago i was engaged. when i met him, i thought i was the luckiest girl in the world. i was in love, and i was contented. we were planning everything when it suddenly struck me that i do not want to marry him... it broke his heart, and it hurt me as well because i could not give him a valid reason why i did not want to continue... i just felt deep inside that it was not right. during the time i was with him, i learned a lot about myself. through him i uncovered things about me that i had forgotten... i started to write again and do everything i was good at, things i forgot i knew how to do. he showed me just how simple things actually are. and during my time with him i found my way back to God. he was my savior... yet i do not know why i just couldn't go through with it. now.i start to think, what if i stayed? we would be getting married months from now. what if i did things differently?what did he go through?what have i done?... and the worst: WHAT IF HE WAS MY DIRECT SOUL MATE? there are times, a lot of times actually, when i just want to go back. fix things. there are times when i want to continue with the wedding and believe that he is actually the one. there are times until now when i cry, thinking this is just my karma for letting him go. but those times are temporary, because i always keep in mind that he is happy now. and when i remember that, i am happy too. he was my soul mate, i learned so much, had the time of my life, but most importantly: I GOT ACQUAINTED with myself once again... he brought out the best of me to fulfill God's plan for me...
the lesson:
and now that i understand myself, even though i am all alone, i feel grounded and complete...the role of love in our search for meaning.=)
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